if i swallow anything evil

ever wish you could drop everything you do, and everyone you know and just run away...?

2007-07-13T15:14:00.000-05:00

well here it goes;

detroit, i'll miss you the most. try not to let them change you too much while i'm gone. one of my biggest fears of leaving is that i won't recognize you when i return.

as for you dearborn, now that the lofts that overlook michigan avenue are finished, you'll soon resemble the streets of downtown royal oak, lined with hip boutiques and cleverly-named restaurants. i suppose i won't even feel at home here ever again.

on a more personal note, i don't have anything to say to anyone specific.

the strangest, most-provoking list of inconsistent ideas that i promise i will carry out by either the end of this week, or the end of this decade...

2007-07-06T07:54:00.000-05:00

fix laptop
fix ipod
fix sidekick
tell mom she needs to buy new ink cartridges for her hp printer
revise and update resume and references
great lakes health plan; choose a PCP within 90 days after july 1st 07 (OR ELSE!)
deal with $70.00 detroit parking ticket, whatever that may entail
make an appointment with my F.I.A. caseworker, deal with any paperwork that
has not yet been finalized
google blog search "old navy" and "security cameras"; self-explanatory
go to 'that one blog' i found earlier and save pages
make a note to
browse blockbuster (online/in store) for movies i have yet to see
punish myself for not writing down my sidekick notes on paper when i first thought of it
search internet for 'get rich quick' schemes
take steph to work this afternoon, be at her house by 1:30PM
remember to ask her for bottles/cans
ask elizabeth for bottles/cans
start copying any contacts, make new address book
ask mom for bottles/cans to return too
DON'T EVER STOP THINKING ABOUT KEVIN
copy list of store locations/directions into red notebook
do something special for steph; she's been so good to me and i owe it to her
print out/fill out/turn in applications
start new project D.I.Y.book
seriously consider taking the job as an in-home care giver
talk to steph/stephs mom about possible living situation
make a note about STOPPING COMPLETELY AT FLASHING ORANGE TRAFFIC LIGHTS
call dad cause i miss him
visit kids cause i miss them too
COPY DOWN THIS LIST ON PAPER AS SOON AS I GET HOME IN CASE MY SIDEKICK
DECIDES TO COMPLETELY ERASE ITSELF AGAIN
call aj cause i miss him
get started on the 'new' red book

LAPTOP; she can't handle pressure like she used to. she heaves and sighs and gets an awful temperature sometimes.
iPOD; my screen only shows me a blinking apple, insisting it hasn't been charged
SIDEKICK; after having it charged for a good hour yesterday morning i was anything but delighted to find all of my notes, txts, emails, pictures and contacts were erased, wiped clean from even the sim card
PRINTER INK; photo cartridge #58
PRINTER INK; color cartridge #57
STORE LOCATIONS/DIRECTIONS; meijers, k-mart, wal-mart, target, michaels, etc
NEW PROJECT; 'D.I.Y BOOK'; a two inch thick binder containing print-outs, magazine articles, tutorials and other how-to's on everything from t-shirt surgery to making a kiwi mop to scrapbooking crafts to street art and urban art.

aaaand i moved back in today...

2007-04-23T01:13:00.000-05:00

pshhh. i don't even know. of course i compulsively decided to make a new blog the day before i loose my direct internet connection. i should have known better. this is just weird though, almost exactly two months later i'm here again.

not exactly 'moving in'. in fact i was only allowed to stay one night here. but it's 2:19 in the AM and i'm still sitting here because i could find nowhere else to go tonight. becca wasn't answering her phone and when she finally called me back she was sleeping, and steph's phone is shut off or her service provider is screwed up or something. gheyyy. but i was supposed to fill out all this paperwork tonight for f.i.a. tomorrow. but the packet is so hard to complete by myself. it wants all the information of the people in the household i'm living in, but i'm homeless. so i'm not sure what exactly i should be filling out. i need someone to help me out cause i'm never quite good with this state of michigan bullshit anyway.

so i say fuck the paperwork, i'll find someone to help me with it in the morning, cause i really wanna get back to my blackbook. i've been working in that baby for days straight now and i've got some pretty damn nice pieces coming along. i found some great all graff sites and forums today so imma 'right-click save' everything i find. =]

oh and it was mandi's birthday last night. i didn't get the chance to see her but she txt'd me and we're getting together sometime this afternoon.

oohhhhhh i'm moving out tomorrow...

2007-02-18T01:50:00.000-05:00

yeah yeah yeah.
i spent all of thursday night printing out applications while going out for the occasional cigarette. after 6 hours of doing that all night i got bored and decided to go over to becca's house and fill the applications out there or something. i took sarah to get her prescription and we were planning on spending more of the day together but her and stephenie had plans to go see a movie. i told sarah we should really go see kevin soon at the hospital (becca and sarah informed me that he's been in heritage hospital since tuesday. the reasoning is disclosed information) just because i know he's probably lonely as fuck and it would make him feel pretty good. but besides that, it was just the right thing to do. whaaaaatever. so after leaving becca's around 2:00 i drove up to southland mall and turned in my applications. it was fun. i was all cutesy and of course all the right-lookin' boys were there (friday afternoon- no loud, underage, obnoxious little girls running around hot topic) and i mean come on, why wouldn't that be fun? exactly. i stopped at home afterwards to pick up more applications and grab some cash and headed out to westland mall and did the same fucking thing. on my way home i was screaming soooo hard to 'sticks and stones' and called up holli to see what she had planned for the night. she wanted to go to the d.i.a and was looking for a ride but by the time angela finally got a ride over it was too late and we just stayed in. boooooo. we sat around on her kitchen floor for a few good hours, waiting for something to happen. uhmmm yeah. we did that for literally like, four hours. as soon as angela left, we ended up going over to some kids house, one of collin's friends. it was like 14 boys and a fridge full of beer vs. holli and i. hahhaa. fuckkkkk thaaat. i broke right into that thing and dragged holli into the bathroom for a sidekick photoshoot. cuuuuute.

well. here are the rest. i can't believe it's already 2:00am. i'm sitting at the kitchen table, just ate a bowl of potatoes and onions. mmmmmm. blahhh, i forgot to mention tomorrow is my last day living here. or at least, it's supposed to be. mom is a crazy ho now, i swear to god.